Afraid of Fear

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Afraid of Fear

There is that tickling feeling, the eerie spinning of butterflies fluttering aimless in the pit of my stomach. My hands to the touch are clammy and beads of pearls leak from my flesh and run like tears down my skin.

The darting race of my heartbeat sending a rush of drugs through my veins. Adrenaline courses and turns my thoughts into a spiraling chaotic frenzy. My hands feverishly cling to anything, something in reach. I can’t comprehend what is going on. I don’t understand why I can’t grasp a sense of reality. The images in front of me become hazy and foggy. I can’t…

…I can’t breathe. My lungs are not drawing and releasing air. My legs become shaky and the quivering shutters ricochet throughout my body.

Silence overcomes me, I can’t hear anything but a blinding pinging loud screech. There is nothing. My chest doesn’t rise and fall and death seems to have replaced the heartbeat that once pounded feverishly against my chest.

My feet are cement boots at the bottom of the ocean, the current doesn’t help me escape the over flow of relentless pain. I can’t escape and I can’t comprehend to help myself.

No one there to save me from myself…I am the all-consuming evil of my own fear.

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Life Lost

I can smell the depths of the past

Leaking all over like a junkie smoking crack

The sweat of the night just rearing its head

I was told there weren’t any warning signs

So why is she dead?

That this is how it is

But if you really listened to hear

You would’ve heard her cries

Maybe we could see the reality through her crooked lies

She was desperate

Her mind a tangled place of insane

Her body a glistening realm

But no one knew she was at a loss with no gain

Since she didn’t wear woe on her face

There was no way to explain

That the meeting of the minds

Wasn’t really a game plan

Now her body hugs the floor

Life now invisible

No place like home

But I can’t grasp the principle

How does this happen?

Who is to blame?

A woman with promise

But no one knew her name

4 siblings

3 kids

2 loves

1 result

I loved her more than life

There is no doubt about that

I couldn’t save her though

That’s a blunt fact

13 years later, I still feel the numbness

Cookie crumb trail of the dark abyss

Her kids have kids

Does she know what she has missed?

Sadness took her life

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My Street Unsaved

The lights flicker, it wasn’t the same

I smelled the remnants of the heartless shame

Full of grace when he entered the door

His presences is now silence as he walks no more

My knees felt the solid stone as I crashed with a thud

All I feel against my skin is the warmth of his blood

I dare not stare or even make a sound

I can’t believe how many people are standing around

How dare they see this as their entertainment?!

Standing around in pure amazement

The blurry scatter as the whirling siren shrieks

It’s been forever since we called to speak

Here in the concrete jungle they don’t care

If your body lays half dead and in disrepair

I could see him gasping for a drink of air

Warming up the machine and saying “Clear”

It hurt as they dragged me away

I don’t even know if he’s ok

Idle chatter of yesterday took place

All I could think of is ‘their time a waste’

Shouldn’t you be worried that this soul could die?

Are you even concern who done this and why?

Frantic elusions of pain numbed so deep

I launched for the white coat to make him see

They think I am crazy, just ‘cause I speak

“But this man is someone’s child” I screeched

I watched on the stoop as they walked around

This man’s body still lying on the ground

I don’t see how this is justice

Does anybody care?

My heart weighs heavy as I scream into the air

They grabbed me and my skin felt a pinch

Keep me quite so I can’t flinch

To say his uniform was that of divine honor

They took it away before he came to his corner

Silencing a man who knew too much

Know that no one would be in a rush

To save a man who grew up in the ghetto

Those rushing sirens now seem shallow

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