Her Eyes

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Behind her eyes there was always a sadness
One that, if not careful, you were likely to miss
She hid it well but the torment had taught
Her that keeping secrets was the best way not to get caught

She wasn't always this cruel, this is why her emotions shone through
As deep down, her soul was withering as she knew
She could have been so much better
This is why she began to write the suicide letter

Her eyes are now in an absent state
As it is now that her sad life has met it's fate
She let herself get dragged down into the deep
Now her soul is resting below while her mortal body lies in a heap

She felt this final action would rectify her past
A simple solution that was thought up too fast
However it was selfish as two wrongs don't make a right
She should have remained strong and put up a fight

She felt she had no way out but there is no excuse
To let your behaviour change and your morals become loose
As your mind is your own and the decisions are yours
And in the end, you pay by ending up that sad lost girl lying on the floor

Signed Patricia Hilton

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SomeBody I Used To Know

GOTYE - Somebody That I Used To Know

The passion ignited immediately
I know you felt it
But that gut feeling of everness
Left unsided

This can't be my fault
I seen the missed calls
You said she "is just a friend"
Yet she has EX attached to her title

The swarm of bees stung me
I could feel my insides swell
The proverbial "friend"
That was front for something to come

I knew you were itching for something more
That's when I open to close the door
Now you sit and think about when we were together
Do you miss your family? Or that significant other?

My intuition states that you cry for me at night
I turn a blind eye when I pass you by
You're barely someone that I used to know
I can't see you as much else, knowing that you couldn't let go

Here is your heart back
The lies seem to be circlng it
You were still clinging to the past
I was happy...do you remember this? or was that too an act?

You say you don't need my love
But that same one you couldn't disengage
Broke your heart
It was protected with me
But now you're just somebody that I used to know
There is nothing left but the cringing sound of your false promises

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Scarred

Covering your pain with bravado Haunted by shadows of the past Previous disappointments decorate the walls you have constructed

 Clinging to shallow waters Paralyzed by the fear of drowning Swimming in nothingness Afraid to feel something Running from anything real

 Cause you find it hard to separate the real from the facade The genuine from the artificial Viewing emotion as a potent poison You find the remedy in indifference 

Calm on the outside but I see the storm you hide. Twisted feelings of inequity Led you to believe you didn't deserve something true Running from yourself you became lost

 So cold you are to the touch Blank stares towards affection Greeting admiration with a turned back But I see through the front Through to something you disguise

 A device of defense against the pain rather play it safe than sorry No apologies for the hearts you break Wrapped up in your own Battling demons of your own.

 Ones you'd rather fight alone Rejecting help from anyone Refusing to appear vulnerable Weary of the things trust can bring Cautious of creating connections Lonely angel

Love Letter

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Dearest Lover,

I’m afraid I have to leave you thanks to my Mother

Her thoughts are old and conceited, I am sorry for the way you have been treated. I have to respect someone who treats me in this cruel way, if only I could forget this world and run away...

However my worries would be great and I know I’d be stressed, knowing I left behind such a mess. My conscience wouldn’t be clear, so I have to leave you behind because I fear, the consequences I would face and the conscience I would have to replace.

The sad thing is I know you are the one and I agree she is wrong but my respect has to be greater for the woman who gave me life, so our relationship is the one I have to sacrifice.

I’m sorry, my love that I have written this in a letter but I know any other form would not have been any better.

I leave you with one hope that you will find happiness, don’t let this event dent your attitude and make you miss, another opportunity that could be greater, just remember I will never hate her.

This future woman I mean that could hold your heart, as I know, with this letter I have broken it apart.

So I beg of you to look at this in a positive way and never look back on this time we shared and say, that you have regretted this past year and would never love again, as in my heart you will always be my greatest lover and friend.

Signed

Patricia Hilton

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mother

The bearer of all life are you From your womb we are giving life You give a love unconditional and never ending A protector and provider You are You would give your life in protection of your seeds Providing all we need from the day we enter this world Even when the dad's aren't around you hold it down Finding strength through your struggle Raising angels in this hell A gift from God you are Shielding us from pain Guiding our way through the maze When the world is cold you make home a refuge You are a teacher, a guide, a cook A worker, a warrior, a nurturer You are all in one A creation of God's immaculate design

Living an Eternity

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I feel I've lived a life shaded by a previous
Like I've lived a life far too serious
The person I am has been moulded into this
And my actions speak more than your contemporary kiss

You're new to this world while my soul has lived an eternity

I feel like you're encased in a given certainty

That this life is the only one you will ever get

While I have thoughts of distant pasts I'll never forget

You try and live your life to the fullest
While I savour ever minute, knowing that living forever can be the cruellest
Test of all, as I know I will see you again but you will be another
A new entity that could even be my brother

In different Centuries our souls have been created

They meet this time in a world that leaves us segregated

My heart longs for a stable ending

As I know my soul will be forever pending

Signed, Patricia Hilton

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Angel

Had a run in with what I perceive to be perfection last night 

 That ended way too soon Not enough time in this life to satisfy my appetite 

 Got a taste of something new last night and after I knew no other would do 

Found peace with her in my arms Met a feeling that I've never known 

 Something I can't explain but Something real something undeniable As I watched you sleep peacefully within my grasp 

 Couldn't help but to think what we could have You could be my treasure me your protector The provider of all you need

 The strength where you lack The source of all happiness The security from all pain

 As my hands traced the lines of your body Realized you were heaven embodied In the physical form

 A gift from the skies you must be No other explanation for what I see Could I be dreaming too good to be real

 I was drawn in by a energy pure and magnetic A divine being you must be No denying what I now know

 Planted seeds of friendship Only to see it bear the fruits of something deeper Kindred souls once lost spirits In the midst of the wilderness found calm in your essence My angel my blessing

Letter to my unborn

Never got to meet you or even see your face Never got to touch you or even hear you cry But when I think of you they fall from my eye I sit and wonder about what you could have been Would you have been president in the future Walking and talking in the present Would have been on your way to one Got my moon and my star would you have been my Sun The one to change the world And grow to father children of your own I look at your sisters and take heed of my blessings I often wonder if you would have been a daddy's girl Or a Mama's boy would you want Barbie or Tonka Toys A victim of an abortion I never had a vote in A casualty of a decision I had no voice in But the pain saw no difference between me and her A burden on my shoulders everyday I carry your death with me Visions haunt me at night Images of me and you playing ball But everytime I go to grab you the picture fades Even though you never got to see life you had a profound effect on mine You never got to see life Be a husband or a wife See the light of sunrise or the view from a high rise A premature demise stole your future But they say its all in God's plan But I cant see the sense in this I would trade mines for yours in the blink of an eye Just to hug you on time and tell you I love you Since I cant I express my pain through these lines In this letter to my unborn

Life Lost

I can smell the depths of the past

Leaking all over like a junkie smoking crack

The sweat of the night just rearing its head

I was told there weren’t any warning signs

So why is she dead?

That this is how it is

But if you really listened to hear

You would’ve heard her cries

Maybe we could see the reality through her crooked lies

She was desperate

Her mind a tangled place of insane

Her body a glistening realm

But no one knew she was at a loss with no gain

Since she didn’t wear woe on her face

There was no way to explain

That the meeting of the minds

Wasn’t really a game plan

Now her body hugs the floor

Life now invisible

No place like home

But I can’t grasp the principle

How does this happen?

Who is to blame?

A woman with promise

But no one knew her name

4 siblings

3 kids

2 loves

1 result

I loved her more than life

There is no doubt about that

I couldn’t save her though

That’s a blunt fact

13 years later, I still feel the numbness

Cookie crumb trail of the dark abyss

Her kids have kids

Does she know what she has missed?

Sadness took her life

What do you know about this?

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